Looking Back

There’s something about holiday weekends that makes me think back, reminisce.  In fact today in the early evening we lost power so in an effort to stay amused, my Lark and I spent some time looking back at photos from years past.

It was fun seeing his face as he was amazed at how young we were when we got married.  I was surprised that he thought I was not as pretty as I am today…. his words.  Big smile here!

He had a hard time looking at pictures of himself as a infant, I heard a lot of ewwwws!  It’s got to be the 8 year old mentality.  I can barely say romance these days without getting scolded.  ”Mommmmm, don’t say that!”

But one photo we both agreed on was this one…

We both agreed that we looked happy and relaxed.

This pictures was taken 7 years ago.  I was in the full throws of Mommydom!  This was when I was losing it.  I was losing my grips on how to take care of myself.  I had my hands full.  Now don’t get me wrong, I am a mother of one and I know so many other women who have numerous kids and I worship them.  Me, I did what I had to to keep it all together and I gave up my needs in the midst.

I put my needs at the bottom of the barrel.  But not today.

Things are different today.

My Lark is able to help out.  Thank you God!  And I plan on teaching him to be a self sufficient man.

I have simplified my approach to life and living.

I’ve been reminded that if I am not healthy then I am will be unable to help anyone else.

I’ve taken back “my time.”

My time to exercise, prepare MY foods, eat when I need to eat, talk with those who understand me.  And the most important lesson I have learned this year is how to say “NO.”

No to those things that will not get me closer to my daily or long term goals.  I’ve learned how to say not to myself and others.

Making better choices for myself everyday!